17 thoughts on “how i’m feeling, if i’m being totally honest”

  1. Marko –
    I think all of these are completely valid feelings. From my own experience of being asked to leave youth ministry a few years ago, I can tell you that most of those feelings will probably remain for awhile. The percentages may change here and there, but just know that it will be a process – more than likely one that you’ll reflect on years from now with clarity.
    Thanks for your honesty with all of us youth workers…personally I’ve found your new posts to be quite poignant. I’ll be praying that the Lord will continue to give you wisdom and peace during this time of transition.
    Blessings to you and Jeannie and the kids,
    Tammy

  2. Marko. Thanks for your honesty once more. I was surpirsed to see Anger at 8% though. I’m sure it’s totally validated, it just didn’t seem like it would feature so highly from what you’ve shared so far, although, granted, I don’t know the full picture. Your vulnerability is an example to me, to us all.

    Thanks for being you.

  3. Marko,

    Thanks for being so honest and vulnerable. You, even in the midst of times like this, provide a great example for others to follow. I’ll be praying for you on each one of those emotions you are feeling – good, bad, and otherwise. God Bless.

  4. Marko-

    Thanks for your honesty. If it were me, I’d probably be at 70% anger–which is why you’re an older, wiser man than I. Praying for you and your fam as you navigate this rough season.

    Grace & Peace-
    sb

  5. As a youth worker who was “suspended” just Sunday over untrue and unproven allegations, my pie looks a little different. I think yours will shift around as time passes. My anger and hurt section take up mostly the entire pie right now but I can understand how it will change with time and how I can help that change by reading my bible and knowing that my God knows the truth and how much I was there for those kids and because He called me to be there. I have been praying for you every single day and missed you terribly in Cinci. You will continue to be in my prayers because I know in my heart that God has big plans for you friend!!!!

  6. Marko wondered why the pie was sliced in different sizes and who had written all over it……Oh sorry, I thought this was one of those Photos in need of a caption.

    Seriously though, thanks for your honesty and leadership. I am praying for you during this season!

  7. Dear Marko,
    From the times I was able to connect with you at Forest Home, San Diego, Anaheim, Sacramento, Reno and throught the different ministry positions I’ve had over the past decade, you have been a blessing , an encouragement and a source of new prospective. I empathize with your pie and as I review your last set of bloggs as well as review the little I’ve heard (I didn’t get wind of the shift in your life till my wife brought it to my attention.) I’m praying for you and your family during the time of your transition. I’m praying that you and your family would receive undescribable peace to knock out the anxiety. I pray that HIS Joy would connect deep within your in spite of your sadness. I pray that HIS spirit would fulfill your longing and I pray that we as your Christ based family would gleen better discernment in how to be available to love, encourage and support you and yours. May we also grow in learning how to listen to HIM as well as you and others who hurt around us.
    Thank you for your example in the midst of this.
    Please also thank your family for their patience.

    Resting in HIM,
    Jackson

  8. Marko,

    I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t shocked when I found out about the drama that went down with you and Zondervan/YS. I just want to encourage you to stay strong through the tough times, as I’m sure you will. I bet it was a huge encouragement to hear about all of the youth workers/pastors out there who blogged about and stuck up for you on their blogs. That’s how you can tell that you’ve truly made an impact.

    I appreciate all that you do and I will be praying for you and your future ministry!

    – paulg

  9. I feel for you, Marko. During NYWC 2008 the only book I bought Yaconelli’s, “Getting Fired for the Glory of God.” I misread the title–thought it was “Getting Fired UP for the Glory of God.” Didn’t realize it til I got home and started reading it what it was. Within a week and a half, I walked into a meeting where they said, “We’re not firing you, we’re not asking you to resign, we’re just giving you the opportunity to resign. If you take it, you get a severance package until the end of the year. If you don’t…” they trailed off. Mike’s book gave me a lot of encouragement and validation processing the whole experience.

    However, in retrospect, maybe I should have bought the book next to it: “Getting a Raise for the Glory of God.”

  10. Marko,

    Matt M. told me about the happenings with YS. I have been praying for you and your family. Looking forward to sharing more of the journey with you. Ministry will always be about “soul to soul” – it is my hope you will find a place that delights in you and allows you the freedom to be you! Please keep in touch – I remain a big fan of you and your family!

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